Right now, as you read these words, how are you relating to this moment? Do you feel it to be a passage in time, a means to travel from your past toward your future? Do you feel that this moment is merely a stepping-stone from one moment to the next?
Or, instead, do you encounter this moment in and of itself? In other words- are you present, or are you hurrying through the present? This parshah begins with Jacob fleeing from his brother Esau and heading to Haran where he will get married and begin a family. The drama of the story portrays this scene purely as a transitional moment. And yet, at this time of hurrying from one place to another, from one stage of life to another, something remarkable happens: “Vayifga BaMakom- He encountered the place” (Gen. 28:11). What does that mean? The word for “encounter” (peh-gimel-ayin) means to “meet” or to “happen upon”, but it can also mean to “hit”, as in “hitting the bulls eye”. In other words, this seemingly insignificant moment becomes the “target”. Jacob has an encounter. What does he encounter? He encounters the “place”. Not a particular thing or being, but the space in which things and beings appear. The word for “the place”- HaMakom- is also a Divine Name. So, when Jacob shifts his attention toward the space within which this moment unfolds, he encounters the Divine. Meaning, he encounters the Reality of the Space Itself, rather than his mental idea of the space as merely a temporal hallway between memory and anticipation. How does he do it? He places stones around his head and lies down in the “place”. He brings that which is most ethereal and formless- mind and thought- to the most concrete and solid- stones of the earth. This practice of focusing on something physical brings the mind out of its constant stream of thinking, out of its ideas about what is going on, and into connection with what is really going on, right now. Awareness becomes presence by touching forms that are actually present. Jacob then dreams of a ladder set on the earth, reaching toward the heavens, with angels ascending and descending upon it- “Jacob’s Ladder”. Hassidic master Rabbi Aharon of Karlin taught on this verse that the ladder itself is an instruction in presence. It teaches that when one’s feet are firmly rooted in the earth, one’s head can reach the heavens. Being “rooted in the earth” means that awareness is connected with the physical world, as it is. The “head reaching the heavens” means that, paradoxically, when awareness is totally connected to the physical, you can become aware of that which is aware; awareness becomes aware of awareness. As long as awareness is wrapped up in thinking, it dreams that it is the thinking. It dreams up the “me” that is defined by thinking. But when thinking subsides, there can be this realization: I am not this thought-based self. I am just this boundless, free, radiant awareness. The head has reached the heavens! Jacob then awakens and exclaims: “Yesh Hashem bamakom hazeh- The Divine is in this place- v’anokhi lo yadati- and I didn’t even know it!” Here, the Torah gives us an excellent description of what “awakening” is all about- it gives us a "Torah of Awakening". In the dream state, the mind-generated self imagines the Divine to be elsewhere. It is something to be reached, achieved, hoped for, given up on, disillusioned about. But even within the dream there are clues. Just as Jacob understood the message of the ladder, so it is with everything in our lives: If we look carefully, it is possible to see: That which we seek is That which is Present. But to see this requires becoming present. The present is whole, complete, Divine. To be present is to not be separate from that wholeness. Then, as you journey in the world of time, you can stay connected to that wholeness. You can draw from the wellspring of renewal, even as you do your work in the world, as it says a few verses later- “vayar v’hinei v’er basadeh- he looked, and behold- a well in the field!” To be sure, as Jacob’s ensuing twenty years of servitude to his uncle Lavan shows, life can still be replete with challenges. But when you are rooted in the earth and your head reaches the heavens, the challenges are different. There is a lightness- as it says when Jacob leaves the “place” after his vision-“Vayisa Yaakov raglav vayelekh- Jacob lifted his feet and went”- it is as if he is flying. Actually, the things and events in time are flying- endlessly coming and going, while the Place remains endlessly the same. What is that Place? It is always where you are and it is also ultimately what you are: Divine Presence, living as this one, ever-changing moment. Take a moment to connect with the Place through connecting with the Earth- take off your shoes, touch the Earth, bow your head to the ground... enjoy!
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Bruce Joffe
11/29/2014 06:14:25 am
Beautiful commentary, more reflective of Reb Brian's proclivity for finding opportunities to awaken - i think - than what the story actually tells. Do remember that this Jacob had just stolen his brother's birthright and was fleeing. Perhaps he was fleeing his sense of guilt as well as his brother's rage when he has this alleged "awakening" experience.
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Wayne M.
12/2/2014 07:34:00 am
I agree with the previous commentator that Reb Brian's commentaries are always instructive, inspirational, and provoke much to contemplate. The story of Jacob and Esau provides lessons beyond measure. The Awakened One is the title that was given to the Buddha.
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12/2/2014 05:24:41 pm
Ha! How fun! Yes there are lots of ways to see thing story... but I would challenge- why is seeing a deeply flawed person demonstrate awakening not inspiring? To me, it expresses the truth that awakening is the ever available truth. It's not reserved just for those who deserve it... a fact which can be heartening for most of us!
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Bruce Joffe
12/3/2014 01:29:05 am
Certainly, deeply flawed people can be awakened. Flawless people, perhaps, would have no need for awakening. But who, walking on this Earth, isn't deeply flawed? I'm questioning whether Jacob was actually awakened.
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Wayne M.
12/8/2014 09:09:18 am
In response to your reply and challenge: why is seeing a deeply flawed person demonstrate awakening not inspiring? I find it deeply inspiring, as well as a relief that common folk such as myself can have the experience of awakening. It is a relief to know that we don't always get what we deserve, and most of us are given opportunity after opportunity to achieve the presence and fullness of the present. The inspirational aspect is what draws people such as myself to explore and gain from the experience and wisdom of others--some present, and many of the past who leave us a legacy. Thanks again!!!
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