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The Fiancé- Parshat Hayei Sarah 

11/4/2015

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Back in the summer of 1988, I was home from music school after Freshman year.
 
One night, I went out with some high school friends to a diner. One of them surprised us with the news that he had met the girl of his dreams and they were getting married.
 
“Really? Are you sure it’s the right thing?” we asked.
 
We were only nineteen. The idea of getting married was inconceivable to us.
 
“I know it’s the right thing,” he replied. He then went on to recount all the serendipitous events “proving” to him that she was his perfect life partner.
 
“I’ve never been so sure about anything in my entire life,” he said.
 
Having never experienced that kind of certainty myself, I was suspicious, but I didn’t question it further.
 
The next summer, in 1990, we all went out again, and he told us what horrors had transpired after they were married: She had stolen his car, emptied his bank account and disappeared. So much for serendipity!
 
Sometimes, in our enthusiasm to “trust the universe”, we give away our power to make decisions. Rather than ask ourselves the crucial questions, we instead look for signs and coincidences to confirm that we’re on the right track, that things are beshert.
 
In this week’s reading, Abraham sends his servant Eliezer back to their homeland to find a wife for Isaac. When Eliezer arrives at the city of Nahor, he prays:
 
“Hashem… let it be that the maiden to whom I say, ‘Please tip over your jug so that I may drink,’ and who replies, ‘Drink, and I will even water your camels,’ her will you have designated for your servant, for Isaac…”
 
At first glance, it might seem that Eliezer is making this same kind of mistake, relying on an external sign to tell him what to do, rather than using his own intelligence to find the right wife for Isaac.
 
Or is he?
 
If Eliezer had prayed that the girl should be wearing a purple dress, or have a really big hat, certainly that would have been arbitrary.
 
But what does he say?
 
He says that she should offer water to him and his camels. In other words, she should be a mentch- a kind and generous person.
 
He’s not giving away his power in favor of superstition; he’s actually specifying the exact criteria by which to make his decision: she should be kind and generous. He doesn’t want Isaac to marry someone who will steal his money and his donkey! If she’s not a mentch, he’s not interested.
 
If you want to live with clarity and purpose, if you want to truly say “yes” to your life, you’ve got to be able to say a clear “no” as well. The “yes” and the “no” go together.
 
Saying “no” can be really difficult. So many things can get in the way- stories in your head telling you what you “should” do, feelings of guilt for letting others down, or lack of trust in yourself.
 
But, there are decisions that only you can make. Take your power in your hand and meet your destiny! Don’t be blown around by the winds of fate!
 
To be decisive doesn’t mean you shouldn’t trust. Trust your ability to make your decision!
 
Then, after you’ve made your decision, trust whatever happens next. Surrender to what happens. Ultimately, we have no control over how things unfold, but we always have the power to choose.
 
Are there decisions you are avoiding?
 
Or, after you make decisions, are you easily derailed because you can’t say “no” to other things that come along? Do you ever blame others for your inability to follow through on your own decisions?
 
Remember- your life is like a boat. The steering wheel is in front of you. Take it and steer; don’t wait for someone else, don’t blame anyone else. The ocean has its own currents, but you are the captain.
 
And, if you’re not sure yet which decision to make, that’s fine too. Be uncertain. Sometimes it's wonderful to just go with the currents. Sometimes life really can be a magical tapestry of serendipity, effortlessly bringing you to good things.
 
But sooner or later, that kind of magic ends, and the currents leave you drifting aimlessly, or even worse, headed toward the rocks. When that happens, take the wheel and decide which way to go! Then, a new kind of magic begins.
 
Each of us has a completely unique path with unique decisions to be made. But there is one decision that is completely universal. It’s the decision that each of us faces at all times: the decision to fully inhabit this moment.
 
To fully inhabit this moment, the “yes” and the “no” must be one: “yes” to what is, “no” to resisting what is.
 
And yet, if a feeling of “resisting what is” arises, you must say “yes” to the presence of that feeling- because in that moment, “resistance to what is”- is what is!
 
In this way, resistance is transformed into non-resistance; the “yes” and the “no” are completely one. 
​
What is this moment like?
 
Is it peaceful? Is it tense? Is it gentle? Is it harsh? Are you willing to decide, right now, to say “yes” to this moment, as it is?
 
This is actually the most important decision you will ever make, because it's the foundation of all other decisions. Without this decision, there is unrest; there is struggle.
 
But with this decision, your potential for real peace can manifest. With this decision, the Messiah is born, little by little.
 
Martin Buber, in his essay Judaism and the Jews, tells the story that when he was a child, he read an "old Jewish tale" that I later found in the Talmud (Sanhedrin 98a):

Rabbi Yehoshua ben Levi met the Prophet Elijah. He said to him, “When will the Messiah come?”

Elijah answered, “Go ask him! The Messiah sits at the gates of Rome, waiting among the poor, afflicted with disease.”
 
Buber says that he later came upon an old man and asked him, “What does he wait for?”
 
The old man answered, “He waits for you.”

On this Shabbat Hayei Sarah, the Sabbath of Life, may we remember our power to decide for this life, for this moment. May true and lasting peace be swiftly born in the world for love, wisdom and healing.
 
Good Shabbos!
-b yosef
2 Comments
Peter Jacobson
11/5/2015 10:15:30 pm

Yes, a good lesson here to be sure. A set of synchronicities are a lovely and even essential beginning, and then, Yes, the mentschlik qualities must follow. Meeting by chance, say, at the library(!), essential starter, and then sweet lovingkindness, showing generosity and love for another's children leading to being a wonderful mother herself.... The signs show themselves over time, cascading rapidly or gently like a country stream over the boulders and rocks and around the bends.... and more of this wonderfully developing story for another time and another place......

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Faith Hayflich
11/6/2015 07:05:45 am

Dear Rabbi Brian
I read your d'var Torahs every week and they always speak to me. Sometimes I'm surprised, sometimes touched, sometimes a resonance--yes, I've had that experience. I hope when you return to oakland you are able to offer a multiday workshop that I can attend. I wish you a time of delight in Costa Rica.

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