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No More "Rather-ing"! Parshat Va'etkhanan

8/7/2017

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“Va’etkhanan el Hashem ba’eit hahi- I implored Hashem at that time…”

This parsha opens with Moses imploring God to enter the Promised Land, ba’eit hahi – At that other time, I implored – at that time, and not at this time.
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I just got back yesterday from a two-week trip with my family to Italy. I am blessed to have such amazing parents-in-laws who, ba’eit hazeh, at this time, can choose however they want to spend their time, and they chose to take our whole mishpakha on vacation with them for their fiftieth anniversary.

At one point in Rome, we had split up into two different cabs, and I was in a cab alone with Lisa’s father, who we call Poppi Normy. Poppi said to me ba’eit hahi, at that time, “So, Brian – are you enjoying yourself or would you rather be at some ashram in India?”

I replied, “Well, I don’t really put energy into rather-ing things.” He was silent for a moment, and then said, “I get that. That’s good. I’m going to eliminate ‘rather’ from my vocabulary.” And then I said, “I’ll use this story in my next drash.”

So, what does it mean to not “rather” something?

It doesn’t mean that you can’t make good judgements. It doesn’t mean that you don’t take yourself out of an undesirable situation, or that you don’t help to make things better for yourself or others, it just means that whatever your experience is, in whatever situation you find yourself in, you don’t put mental and emotional energy into wishing things were different. You first of all accept the moment as it is, and then do whatever you do from this place of openness and surrender.

If you’re familiar with Musar, the Jewish practice of cultivating character traits, you might recognize “not-rather-ing” as Equanimity, known as menukhat hanefesh or shivyon nefesh, but it’s important to understand that this is not merely a character trait; it’s not something that you add on to your personality, but rather it’s a quality of Presence – a quality inherent within your field of awareness that is underneath your personality, underneath your thoughts, underneath your feelings. And while your thoughts and feelings are always flowing and changing, awareness is the background against which your thoughts and feelings are happening.

So, when you shift from feeling that “I am this personality, I am these thoughts and feelings,” into knowing yourself as the field of Presence within which your thoughts and feelings are happening, then Equanimity is very natural, because awareness itself is never preferring one thing over another thing; it’s simply open to whatever there is to perceive in the present moment – that’s why it’s called “Presence.”

So when Moshe says, “Va’etkhanan el Hashem ba’eit hahi- I implored Hashem at that time,” it’s saying, “I implored that I should be at some other time, at a time other than this moment. I don’t want to be here, I want to get to the Promised Land.

But God says, no – “Alei rosh hapisgah- ascend to the top of the cliff- v’sa einekha- and raise up your eyes…” Now the expression for “ascend to the top of the cliff” begins, “Alei rosh,” which literally means, “Raise up the head.” Meaning, get out of your head. Don’t be so identified with your own opinions, with your emotional reactions and so on. How do you do that? “v’sa einekha- and raise up your eyes,” meaning, instead of putting energy into judging, into “rather-ing,” simply see what’s happening in this moment. Be the witnessing Presence within which your present experience is unfolding.

On this Shabbat Va’etkhanan, the Sabbath of Imploring, may our prayer lead us to deeper connection with Hashem Who is constantly incarnating as the fullness of this moment,ba’eit hazeh – in this moment!

Good Shabbos!

6 Comments
Norman
8/10/2017 04:53:15 pm

It certainly was an "Ah-Ha" moment. Never could say thank you enough for all of your insights. Rathering was an important one.

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brian
8/11/2017 12:17:06 am

Thanks for the inspiration Poppy!

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Rahmaneh link
8/11/2017 02:25:30 pm

How very wonderful to have a glimpse into your inspiring mishpakha! Thank you Brian for including us (your TOA clan) in your personal life via this great story, and thank you Norman for weighing in with your voice! I echo your sentiments in deep appreciation of the insights that come through your son-in-law and I celebrate that you, his father-in-law can appreciate him and his work! It seems to me that those of us that are co-evolving in consciousness are truly family, in fact my biological family does not at this time expressed much interest in my spiritual pursuits and explorations so I doubly celebrate that you and Brian appear to me to be both family in the traditional sense as well as in the co-evolving sense. Mazel tov and good shabbos from Santa Fe, NM!

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Brian
8/11/2017 03:13:10 pm

Thank you for writing Rahmaneh!! Yes Poppy Norm is not the norm!! I must have been gifted some good karma by someone.

mom
8/11/2017 02:38:15 pm

Brian, this beautiful piece came at the perfect time. I read it to Aunt Angie who is having a tough day and it instantly relaxed her and made her fee better She says thank you with love and I too.

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Brian
8/11/2017 03:13:46 pm

Thank God. Let's go visit her.

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